Queen's Command: Goodnight & not Goodbye Adeline Peixuan.

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

Goodnight & not Goodbye Adeline Peixuan.

I posted this on 31st Aug 2014 (Thursday)on my instagram.

That night was really random, I began to miss leading cell groups and I miss this group of people.

I looked at this picture and thought about the past.

I also remember vividly that I took a second look at this picture again,

I looked at each and everyone in the picture and

I saw Peixuan, she was sitting right beside me, I noticed her.

I don't know why I did, but I just did.

Do you think she dressed like me?

Give you guys some background.. she looked up to me and called me her idol.

She tells that practically to every of our mutual friends.

Seriously, I wasn't feel very happy about it.

She wanted to be like me, it makes me feel like she wanna copy me.

Was it a sign when I zoomed into her the night just before the accident happen?

On 1st August 2014 (Friday), Peixuan met an accident.

I only got the information on Saturday and that she might not be able to make it soon.

But it was the boy's birthday, we had a staycation at MBS over the weekends.

I had guest coming over so I couldn't leave, I kept checking her facebook profile for update.

On Sunday, I panic when I saw people starting to post "RIP..."

Texted Boss Pea immediately to check. I had checkout of the hotel and was

on the way back home with my boy.. I made a U-turned to Tan Tock Seng Hospital.

I was told to come and say my last words to her,

my tears didn't stop in the cab while I was rushing to the hospital.

I made it in time, she looked so different and unrecognizable..

Her head was so swollen because she went through two brain surgery & one lung's.

Sunday was also her dad's 50th birthday, 3.30pm.. all life support had been removed.

She hung on until 4th August (Mon), 4.12am, she passed on peacefully with a glow on her face..

she went back home with the Lord.

No more suffering and pain.

I've been busy since Monday evening and last night, I went to her wake.

First night of the funeral, I couldn't quite tune myself into the situation..

I was just watching her by the bed in the ICU ward the day before.

Today, it's wraths, picture, bible, guestbook & coffin right before me.

Most of us haven really have the sink in feeling like she's really gone..

but our tears just keep streaming down our face whenever we looked at her lying there.

But she's pretty in there.. just like this..

Peixuan.. If only I was a little more patient with you when you're still around..

If only I knew earlier that all that had happened will happen..

I would have felt better, slightly less guilty.

If only I had been more understanding that you're someone different, with special attention needed..

I would have did something different.

Too many if only(s).

Today is your burial and I can't be there for your last journey but I know that I will see you in Heaven.

I dedicate this post specially to you, hoping that you are looking over Heaven now

and know that you're blessed and be happy that you have a dedicated post on your idol's blog!

I saw how you fought and you taught me to be stronger!

Treasure everyone around you.
The good ones, bad ones.. they are around you for a purpose.
You might not realize until they are really gone.
Never wait till its too late, life is unpredictable.

xoxo.

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