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SHIFTED!

2011-06-24T12:02:00.008+08:00

Dear All,

I've shifted to: www.qiuxue.tumblr.com

02 Sep 2010 - Classic lunch time!

2010-09-02T14:20:00.002+08:00

Boss drove us to downtown for lunch (MAC)
So I missed my daily lunch nap ):
BUT some CLASSIC happened!
We went to fairprice, Wanyee got so excited when she see..
"PONG BA BAO"
And didn't realise tat there's a guy standing infront of her!
So She knocked onto him!
Walked one step den u turn back and push back the person to his orginal position!
MAN! Who will actually do tat?
Normally we will jus apologise n walk away..
But wanyee push that guy back as if the guy is an object!
This causes boss, me and serene laugh till no tmr!

* my classic colleague - wanyee! *

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26 Aug 2010 - Awesome God!

2010-08-26T12:27:00.000+08:00

After chatting with Marcus abt SIA airstewardess recruitment.
I wanted to go SO MUCH!
But I knew in my heart that my vision has yet to be fulfill.
Feeling led to fast today..
I ask God to show me direction.
In the afternoon, I was informed that I'm leading praise for CG meeting.
Then after I was informed to lead worship also!
Man.. This is the first time I lead worship!!!
God is show me direction even when I'm not done fasting yet.
There was an excitement in my heart but I was so nervous.
I keep praying, speaking in tongues in my heart while working.
I wanted the best for the first time.
I don't want to flop, at all!

Head down to Manyau's, practice with reeve and weiling.
I thank God for wonderful guitar which really make everything different!
Weiling said: "u pattern many many" HAHA.
Finally its time for CG meeting to start.
As usual I stuttered cos I'm too nervous.
Slowly I begin to flow.
After praise I felt so hot, sweating like mad!
Then enter into worship.
To be frank I feel super hot only.
Den the word preached by jiayi was really good!
Be a listener.

To my surprise, evaluation of CG meeting is 8/10
Overall a good cg meeting.
God is really really good.
I will rmb this day, His goodness.
I kept thanking God for great anointing n presence just now.
God nv shortchange me.
AMEN :D

PS: dreams can be fulfill anytime we want, but vision is something according to God's timing. World or God, choose God and it can NEVER be wrong. :)

* I chose vision *

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24 Aug 2010 - DR. AR Bernard's (leaders mtg)

2010-08-24T22:31:00.000+08:00

Head down to jurong west for Dr. AR bernard's leaders mtg!
- forgot to bring ezlink card
- $3.10 from tanah merah - pioneer, refund a dollar.
- bus 179 to church, a dollar.
Totally broke by now, no money for even KFC -.-

The mtg was powerful, like warfare.
Indeed God will nv build something with the mindset of destroying it.
When Adam sin, God can jus jolly well cancel everything that He has created.
But He didn't. There is a purpose.
When God's goodness had been expressed in Holiness (ultimate righteousness) and Love - the extention of His full favor and compassion for us (thru self sacrifice)
Sounds conflicting? NO.
We can love without compromising our "ultimate righteousness"
Main message : TURNING POINT.
Its a point of DECISION.
New word learnt: heb. KHESED (mercy) - expressed in passionate, undeserved loyalty (defining quality of God's character)
Loyalty is a gift, can't buy.
If u can buy it means u can sell it also (fake loyalty)
# Turning point is an event marking a unique or impt historical change of course.(Decide which direction)
# Turning point is an event marking a unique or impt historical decision to not change course but to make a deeper commitment to the existing course.
I didn't regret.
Neither am I shaken by the crisis of my church.
I am passionate & undeservedly loyal to my City Harvest!
A great testimony is coming along SOON.

After mtg, met up with roy n john tay and his gf.
Grumbling that I'm so hungry and having gastric ))):
Went to pioneer coffeeshop for late dinner!
I draw 20dollar transferred by Alex.
And I forgot to take the money!
When I go back, it's GONE! -.-
In the end, roy gonna blessed me with 10dollar!

For chicken chop with countable fries & mrt back home!
Anyway imma coughing like mad now ):

* All things will work out good for those who love God *

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24 Aug 2010 - recent egg-citment!

2010-08-24T12:13:00.002+08:00

I need to discipline myself to pray pray pray!
Oh God, I need a room to myself.
Had KFC for dinner with mummy and that pig *noise pollution*
Man! I've yet to discuss that 3K plans with daddy *nervous*
I want a different 21st bday, pls.......
Ya btw I'm totally amazed by the new doorbell!
It has hokkien, eng and cheena music! AWESOMEEE! :*

Woke up @3am to pee, what a weird timing!
I've grown up, usually I will jus pee on my bed! :x
My bb is getting more and more sotter each day!
Woke up late late late today!
Couldn't tink of what to wear becos my heels haven been send to the cobbler yet!
I'm left with flats n wedges but I need heels!
And best ting is ltr I got leaders mtg @ jurong west!
I won't want to anyhow dressed ><
Rush rush rush!

Okay imma soooo egg-cited to go SOT 2011!
Bible school, here I come.
I need financial blessing, abundant! LOL!
best part is beloved paiidang and jojo might be gng too!
Was crapping with beloved on msn ytd..
He promised to share half of his bread with me :*
HAHA, buy tent n slp in church or walk home from jurong west!
How awesomeeee! -.-
Anyway let's see what I can do to go for SOT!
God bless me, AMEN :*

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23 Aug 2010 - morning updates.

2010-08-23T09:24:00.003+08:00

Something is wrong with me.
Body's tired but can't sleep. HA!
Alright some random update.
Ytd night sent JY my spiritual report while doing facial mask!
Awesomeeee! CLINIQUE products rocks to the max! :D

This morning:

- drop my spects on my transport
went to pick up.
I knocked my head real hard against the front seat!
How awesomeeee?! :*

- went down to canteen, no sandwhich today, wow GREAT!

- waiting for the lift up to office,
some kan chiong spide press the lift button so many times!
Who's the one tat came up with the logic:"press more, it will come faster??!"
RETARDED.
Hahaaha!

And now, imma sitting on the toilet bowl blogging! HEHE! Stay tune for more! ;)

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letting it go :)

2010-08-14T10:40:00.003+08:00

i had enough of all your nonsense i guess.

sms-es, msn & phone calls.

neverending encouraging u..

BUT YOU..
self pity, selfish & the "me, myself & i" attitude.
i gonna say im going to let go helping u.
It's not fruitful, it's a waste of my time.
TOTALLY NOT TEACHABLE!
this is your attitude? "别人说的话随便听一听, 自己作决定"
no wonder there's no change from u.
Sorry but please face your own consequences abt ur OWN decision :D
Good luck to you, i'll see how u survive.
Im moving on to help other ppl.
Its DEFINITELY much better than leading u.

GIMME A BRK FROM UR CHILDISH NONSENSE.

* i had enough *

11 Aug 2010 - for my xiu xiu :)

2010-08-11T23:38:00.000+08:00

Dear XiuXiu,

So so so Sorry, jie jie was too late to found out about ur news.

Today was ur last day and i didnt sent u off.

Xin described to me that u're in very much pain.

U didnt passed away the way u wanted it to be.

But i know u're perfect & super pretty now :)

Jus wanna say u've been awesomeee!

Neverending making so much noise in SJAB!

Remember how u always: "jie this n jie tat, telling me stuff"

Remember how u and xin cried during our passing out parade when i passed down post.

It make my tears uncontrollable too! You've guys are sweet!

Remember ur crazy laughter!

U've make a mark in my life, really.

the handmade gift with ur photo on it, its safely in my cardboard.

I will rmb you forever, my mei.

Promised to find u one of these days with nice nice flowers okay? :*

With Lots of Loves & Huggs!

Christine jiejie

05 Aug - in the midst of fire!

2010-08-05T22:24:00.000+08:00

Was feeling really reluctant to go for cg meetin..

after all the shit he had gave me!
Pissed me off BIG time with his childish mindset.
Dragged myself to cg mtg and I ask God for a short word to woohooo myself abit.

I was given: Deut5:23-24 (23 "So it was, when you heard the voice from the midst of the darkness, while the mountain was burning with fire, that you came near to me, all the heads of your tribes and your elders. 24 And you said: 'Surely the Lord our God has shown us His glory and His greatness, and we have heard His voice from the midst of the fire. We have seen this day that God speaks with man; yet he still lives. )
To be frank, I don't catch what He's trying to tell me!

I reached PJ's place.

Settled down for cg, hahaha goodness!

Praise: my redeemer lives!

Notice v24 says:"yet he still lives"

got into worship session!

I've finally understand and caught what is God trying to tell me!

Listen n heed His voice in the midst of fire!

Because He will definitely SPEAKS! Just listen!

Woooohoooo, God is so good! :D

After cg meeting, we had cgc's mtg.
there's so much tings to plan.
It's a good season to do discipleship and foundation building.
Time for whacking now, gonna be more strict alr.
Hehehe.
Had supper with weilingg n PJ till 2am!
How awesome! ;)

Christine Tan. Sent via BlackBerry from SingTel!

03 Aug - Who is more important?

2010-08-03T12:09:00.002+08:00

Stop whining!
if u wanna come den come..
If u don't want to come, don't come!
As simple as that!
Stop sitting there whining and whining all day and night.
Burying urself in self pity.
It's irk-ing me totally!!!
God don't need you to come if u don't want to.

* who is greater? *

Christine Tan. Sent via BlackBerry from SingTel!

01 Aug - (Part2) My burden, my desire!

2010-08-01T23:30:00.001+08:00

It wasnt a tick/approval that they can get attached.
Right now things are getting really out of hands.
They aint looking at the angle that imma at.

Imma so burden.

Just send my weekly personal report to Jiayi.
Mention to her what I'm feeling and going thru.
Sometimes I jus felt so limited, I wish I could help but ya.. I'm aint sure.
Jiayi replied my report and say, handle my members like handling lives!
Yes.. we are toking abt helping human being in area of physical and emotional.
I wish I could jus scold them. But no, I need to love them..
So childish to do all this!
I really do love my members so much that I can't see them making wrong decision.
I will pray and find a way from God!
I need new anointing more than what I have now!
God please help me. AMEN!

* feel it for me *

Christine Tan. Sent via BlackBerry from SingTel!

01 August 2010 - HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY, CITY HARVEST!

2010-08-01T16:06:00.000+08:00

Just some quick update about today!
Slept at 2am as I was counselling lemon on the phone after having supper with Roy, Jiayi and weilingg.
Alarm rang at 5am! Snooozed till 6! AWESOMEEEE :x
Up and prepared, its was pouring like nobody business..
Weilingg came to pick me up by cabby becos I was too lazy to walk all the way out to the main road and comfort's line was congested -.-
Anyway thanks shihan for buying an AWESOMEEEE mac brkfast for us despite of the big pour! Lurb lurb!

The Q was so so so longgggg!

People starts Q-ing at 3 or 4am alr!

Man this is the CHC DNA! LOL!
1st Svc starts at 9am ends at 11am..
Ps Kong's preaching was AWESOMEEEE.
I miss him so much, I always felt so moved whenever he stood on the stage and give us a smile! Its like assuring us that:"Guy's everything is gonna be alright!"

I feel so safe to seePs Kong & Sun around!
2nd svc starts at 1130am! More AWESOMEEEE!
Sun led worship, I wept like a baby!
Man, her voice really carrys the presence and anointing of God!
I want to have that anointing tat she has! HAHA!
I know I love Jesus so much and its getting more and more! LOL!
I guess many of other also wept like baby.. Such as weilingg! :x
After worship was preaching by Ps Phil!
He rock the whole stadium!!!
Don't let how circumstances affect us! STAND with Jesus!!!
He spoke a word to our church and Ps kong and Sun!
Our church will do more mightier works den now..
Of cos new and more challenges will come!
BUT DON'T GIVE UP!
He even encouraged Ps Kong and Sun!
Ps Phil really rocks!
Though my church is gng through our tough times right now..
God is gng to bring us higher level!
True friendship had been proven and tested through our trials! :)
AWESOME and POWERFUL 21st anniversary, w/o those pops and balloons like last year but it was still so GREAT!
It's not abt the wooohaaaa but its abt an encounter with Jesus!

Aftermath..went fellowshipping with W193 peeps at some prata stall..
and ended up smelly like one!
I'm knocking out soon, its 4pm, just got home..
Gonna go bathe, do mask and slp!!!
Last but not least..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHC!
my Home, my Family.
Let's continue to rock the world!

* Faith, Hope & Love.. LOVE IS THE GREATEST *

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04 July 2010 --> RIGHT NOW!

2010-07-04T23:22:00.003+08:00

i must say something or post something now.

it's been really hard these days..

but i know MY GOD IS GOOD!

i know it's not by chance im place in a new youth cell group.

But everything is still kinda blur~

and i must confess:

"i felt so TERRIBLE ytd when my own team is not standing with me."

but i really need to thank God for great peeps in W193 such as weilingg, joanna & PJ!

i will be feeling more great if my own team would jus make an effort..

DO IT TOGETHER WITH ME!

it's really nv easy for me to start all over..neither for my team..

a new ground to conquer!

i hate getting to know new people.. its a boring job to ask "are u schling or workin" etc..

but i am going to TRY!

GUYS~ stand by me plsssss!

19 June 2010 --> LC

2010-06-19T23:53:00.001+08:00

thurs - i kinda tot of him.

friday - saw the same LEXUS R800 at the spot he always picked me.

saturday - his cg & him passed by mine. tot they were gone after but saw them at city hall..

whats is this?

after our fellowship, we decided to meet up for butterfactory tog..

halfway im already feeling guilty..

its been really long since we contact..

i tot we will jus be norm and ya..

we're not.

we've been spotted by some ppl from our church..

LC is kinda high profile after he won sumting in AC2010..

moreover his bro is WC, who dunno who's WC in CHC?

i was shocked when he held my hands.

i was shocked about the kisses.

i hope it was right but i know its definitely not, i know.. becos he's attached.

i love everything that he do and said that night even though its jus 45mins.

we didnt expect it but we did it.

* i felt bad *

18 May 2010 --> Leaders meeting with Ps Jeffrey R.

2010-05-18T22:54:00.000+08:00

still not feeling quite good.

but still went for combine leaders mtg @ jurong west.

its Ps. Jeff R. from indo.

great word shared, i was so inspired.

During the day is when we should release our potential.

At night is to sleep & God will do the job.

i wanna do something that requires my potential & stretch myself again!

potential is something inside of you that have yet to be discover.

been really thinking this few days, what can i do which is my best.

i know i wont leave because i know my God is good!

met weilingg & peeps @ BEST.

den head home together.

17 May 2010 --> coffee session with darlingg bel ♥

2010-05-17T23:21:00.001+08:00

hasnt been smiling & laughing much after the hard fact.
carelessly drop my $10 daily allowance on the floor, outside my house gate.
yan tore my pants which i have only wore once!
im in a real bad mood.
wasnt even feeling good for gng out after work
all i could tink of is sleep, sleep & still sleep.
but this meet up was arrange weeks ago, so jus go.
i need this so much.
if u know me well, im not someone that will share all my prob with u.
alot of ppl text and call me, saying that they wanna be listening ears.
BUT to me, pls understand that this kind of words may irritate me.
i will tell you what happen if i want to, feel like, feel that u can be an advisor.
if not, NO.
darlingg was really nice, letting me have my fav pearly soya milk
get some fresh air.

photos of the day!

BLACKBERRY ROCKS!

IPHONE SUCKS :p

* i love darlingg *

16 May 2010 --> feeling so much

2010-05-16T23:11:00.001+08:00

im still feeling so much after a rest.

everyone ard me was really encouraging..

boon, shifu, weilingg, huifen, Jonathan and etc...

everyone is telling me: "every disappointment is a new appointment"

"God has a greater plan"

thanks guys but i cant see it.

thousand & million of question in my mind..

where will i go?

what will i do next?

still go for leadership training?

can i survive with the new ppl?

what will happen to the ppl under me?

especially my huimei.

so many many doubt..

no doubt i was agree with God i asked: "why always bring me so near yet so far?"

its like God playing game with me, always.

* shuttig myself down"

15 May 2010 --> HARD FACT.

2010-05-15T23:44:00.000+08:00

service was great.
everything was great till debrief.
the HARD FACT hit many of us.
its been 4 yrs, running this race for God & this cellgroup E399.
im feeling so much after it was annouced, disband.
everyone cried so hard, even me..
i even cried on butter factory dance floor!
you guys will nv feel what im feeling unless u're in my shoe.
experiencing it urself.
within a day, vision was gone.

after the hard fact, we treasured each other more.
decided to go PS Hong kong cafe for dinner before butter factory.
i jus wanted to spend more time with my E399.
so i was late for butter.
the feeling is jus beyond description.

photo time!

READY for service!

waiting for debrief.

max.

my huimei.

more than 2.

dinner after the hard fact.

* i love my E399 *

13 Mar 2010 --> Dajie's 23th birthday! ♥

2010-03-13T17:58:00.002+08:00

had a wonderful service ♥
had a wonderful celebration of dajie's birthday @ ascott raffles ♥
theme: white!
let the picture speak to u ♥

getting READY for a long day (:

my most irritanting member; huimei!♥

me & yw!

together! ♥

thanks to yw, ivan and etc people..

for lying to me that my shirt has a whole..

which make me feel so nervous on my way to ascott hotel..

the moment i reach there everyone says no hole -.-

what a nice joke, not funny.

alright here's the 2nd part of party!

ASCOTT RAFFLES (:

the refreshments!

the suite!

cake cutting session!

dajie!

jocelyn

huishan

indian poker session! IT'S SUPER FUN!!!

some got tired.. like me :x

some got to leave..

and i head to bed! LOL!

here come the next morning fun!

wake up face!

me & jocelyn again!

an apple in the morning!

balloon is love!

TIME TO GO HOME & BATHE!

* HAPPY BIRTHDAY, dajie! *

12 March 2010 --> new nails & prawning with that crazy guy.

2010-03-12T17:23:00.000+08:00

met up with dajie for nails session! ♥
my new nails is so ♥

after that i ps dajie cos crazy guy coming to fetch me for prawning! :x
hehehe~
went over to pasir ris area for prawning with his frens & their gf..
guess what 5 of us prawning..
we only got 1 pathetic prawn for the night!
which is caught by yours truly, me! ♥
actually im suppose to get more but thanks to crazy guys..
everytime when i tell him prawning is biting the bait.. he wanna take over!
everytime scaring the prawn away!
prawn dont love him! muahahaha!
stay there till about 2 plus..
off we went to eat.
home sweet home after that (:

* ♥ my nails. *

08 March 2010 --> Qiuyue bday, pre celebration.

2010-03-08T22:54:00.001+08:00

a family dinner together @ tamp
SAKAE TEPPANYAKI! ♥

* Happy Birthday jiejie! *

05 Mar 2010 --> You can never win God!

2010-03-05T12:13:00.001+08:00

i was super relunctant to go for CGM.
im super affected by that matter!
great TURN OFF!
so many things went through my mind.
for instance i really felt like giving up everything.
my leadership and etc..
since its so easy to be a member why not just be?!

guess what happen when you have such a leader like JOANNE?!
she was toking to me on msn..
was telling her that i have alot of motorola shipment to handle..
can't make it for CGM.
she changed her nick to : "wanted it so much but now u wanna give up"

SHE CAN READ MY MIND!
i remember i was so happy the moment i step into leadership since May 2009.
but now im totally not excited abt that vision.
aniway Jo was super persistent!
EITHER I GO CGM IF NOT SHE COME TO MY HOUSE AFTER CGM!
first choice die, second choice also die! LOL!
in the end no choice, i chose to go CGM.

sometimes, we just know that God will sure touch us.
sure comfort us.
sure ask us to forgive.
you SURE know that He will be there!
but you jus dun want to go.. cause we know that WE CAN NV WIN GOD!
i was super grieved by this matter..
Joanne came to pray for me
i found my release..
this matter hits my pride alot, too the max..
God says: "Christine, if u love me.. will u tend my sheep even if they are irritating n not lovable?"
its v hard to love IRRITANT!
but i have to do so.. cos its the purpose why am i here.
My shoulder was so lighten after CGM.

* YOU CAN NEVER WIN GOD *

02 Mar 2010 --> WHAT KIND OF SHIT IS THIS?

2010-03-02T11:40:00.001+08:00

just because i am a leader i must this and that?

because she's a member i have to always give in?

in the beginning i was really ok about apologising to her..

we also wasnt really toking abt her..

but she self admit.. what to do?

in the end.. i was discussing with hm & km..

i was in deep thought.. conclusion is NO!

im not going to apologise..

after all the shit she had done, im not going to give in anymore!

* i know what wil Jesus do.. but im stubborn"

01 Mar 2010 --> Ding Tai Fung with mummy! ♥

2010-03-01T11:31:00.000+08:00

it's a monday!
mummy off day again ♥
had a nice dinner with her today!
so happy until... jo's call.

got scolded about something that hm, km & me did.
wasnt that convince to apologise to her.
im serious..
she likes to act pity but bullshit bomb behind..
watever~~~~

some people are like GHOST..

look at all my fav! ♥

* shall see how things goes. *

27 Feb 2010 --> FINALLY!

2010-02-27T22:42:00.000+08:00

Finally we're giving them back to there original place!
Finally God is giving us rest!
Finally got approval!
FINALLY FINALLY FINALLY!
the whole cellgroup members atmosphere is so so DIFFERENT!
God is Good all the time & All the time God is Good ;)
STRESS NO MORE, BABY!

check the photos out!

service!

# JESAL, IVAN & WEICHENG!

# BACK TO MY BIMBO SELF! :p

# HUIMEI & KM!

# THE GIRLS POWER!

# YAO WEN

# YAOWEN & IVAN

# LIMEI

dinner @ Billy Bombers Marina Square!
thanks to lemon~ we hollanded again! hahaha! :p
had lots of fun there, we rock the house down!

# myself!

# huimei!

# group photos!

# food!

hmmm was suppose to meet darlingg julyn for REBEL..
after that km & yw they all tempt me ):
" you love singing right? dun club la"
" we mayb can go club ltr , see what time we sing finish la"
etc etc! hahaha~ ok win! i went K!
fun fun fun~ sing sing sing till 4 am!
lemon dunno forgot where he park his car..
we search for ard 30mins?! hahahaha!
gone case!

* i feel so good, back to my usual self *

25 Feb 2010 --> still sick after weeks.

2010-02-25T22:34:00.000+08:00

do you know how awful the cough syrup taste?

its taste not only awful but super stinky!

initially, it's becos i have cough which cause me to have asthma releapse..

now is becos of my asthma, the cough cant stop

inhaler inhaler inhaler~ TAH!

24 Feb 2010 --> 拜年 @ beloved's place (:

2010-02-24T23:03:00.000+08:00

beloved paiidang having outfield this week!
muahahahha~ means i can rob his room, his bed, his everything! =x
went over to his place..it's been long since i went..
i forgotten which level they stay =x
and sweety & angel dun recognise me alr ):
most important thing is.. JEREL KEPT A MISTRESS @ HOME!
hahah!
the mistress is baby bel!
i bluff bel: "belbel.. im jerel's kor kor gf"
she shout: "NO! I AM JEREL KOR KOR GF"
haahhhaha~ scandolous!

as usual i carry sweety but angel keep following me..
angel is too big size for me to carry and sweety is more pretty! hahah!
im biased! =x

SWEETY

ANGEL

ivan was there too..he asked me am i sick?

because my voice.. im indeed still having my cough!

hahah aniway jerel's mum ask ivan to cook egg!

then i ask why dun teach me..

she say: "aiya , u dunno de la"

ahahhaa oops =x indeed!
once again i have nv doubt paiidang's mum cultery skills
love her to the max!
she's also my listening ears..
i rant to her wat happened last sat..
then i had my nice dinner~

went into jerel's room..
awhile ltr i went into jesal room..
weicheng, jesal n i,
recorded alot of retarded stuff.. singing.. guitar and etc..
i deleted it accidentally =x
wahhahaha lets try again next time, its really fun!

* had a nice dinner *

21 Feb 2010 --> continued story..

2010-02-21T22:42:00.001+08:00

what we do when we are happy?!
ans: TAKE PHOTO!!! =x

makan time!

Huimei!

food!

ivan told me dhaslie is bored!
so we decide after dinner programme..
we went to a pub to chill..

photos!

Joanne!

Alvin!

Henry!

Ivan!

im getting high over coke! even the waitress laugh at me! LOL

last but not least, dhaslie (my 38 best companion!)

ya but im not those chilling type, u know?
i need to dance!
i does chill but STARBUCKS la not pub! LOL!
dhaslie too! muahahhaha sista!
he say lets go PLAY = gay club!
they were more excited to see me open my eye big big den gng dere to enjoy! -.-
hahahha i had fun REALLY!
i felt really safe to dance there..even if someone suddenly dance with u..
u know that they dun have any bad intention becos they fancy girls (:
its a GOOD NIGHT!

21 Feb 2010 --> the moment i could not take it anymore!

2010-02-21T22:01:00.000+08:00

it's church day today..

every saturday is always always a day that i look forward to in every week.

this week, i wasnt happy.. totally not.

i give in, i tried my very best to accept them, love them, i compromise..

help them, put them first, be a FRIEND.

it jus DOESN'T work out.

especially that very her (i cant mention name)

initially, from time to time i always feel that maybe i haven try my best yet.

there's surely something to work on!

i kept on being positive despise of all the shit that im getting from their actions & attitude.

im sorry to say, mayb i wont say a leopard wont change its spot BUT

i will say IT'S HARD for a leopard to change its spot.

till that very call, i was still calm, i still apologise, i still soften myself even though

i was really fuming, burning on the inside of me!

tears started to roll down my eyes.. i felt so helpless at that very moment.

it is really the time i couldnt take it anymore.

to stop my tears immediately, my lovely LEADER turned me ard faced my mem..

tats really embarassing but it works! (-.-"')

we decided to went on to fellowship ourselves without joining them..

every moment was so so so great..

i dont deny that i feel very very hurt at that moment..

i may seems as hard as i am..but im not.

many says im fierce or fierce looking.. am i really?

depends on wat isit actually.im a human after all.

however, after the rain God nv fails to give me, the rainbow =D

what a great fellowship we had together, jus the initial people!

we were happy, we filled HK cafe with our LOUD laughter..

actually is mine, yeah!

SO? i felt so RELIEVED after jus a short 5 mins cry!

ivan & bra was commenting stuff like: "tot u normally very bimbo one, how come this time u lose to her?"

people change, i change too!

i mus say, i nv wanted to compete or fight back with them or her especially..

im keeping everything open & positive..

im giving in and giving in.. so i feel tat i didnt lose out..

becos i did not lost that very character of mine.

its not about winning in the surface but on the inside of us (:

the night doesnt end here..............

to be continue in next post...

18 Feb 2010 --> great cgm!

2010-02-18T23:56:00.000+08:00

These are for cg games today! FUN FUN!
Lord's Prayer is our pledge (:

CREDIT TO JO'S MUM =D

* God is GOOD! *

17 Feb 2010 --> that's what and how I guess it will be.

2010-02-17T16:21:00.002+08:00

Was doing some reflecting on my bed last night.
I realise that much of our memories kinda faded.
Its quite weird don't u think so?
Mayb I'm jus too tired of being the one..
Trying to make time n etc.
We jus couldn't get to meet, pointless.
Why not now, I make the decision, I be the bad one.
I leave and I just want to walk away.
Ya I'm heartless bacause I made the decision.
Its all to late to turn back time.

* u have already been faded *

Christine Tan. Sent via BlackBerry from SingTel!

15 Feb 2010 --> 恭喜恭喜 - 大年初二!

2010-02-15T23:18:00.000+08:00

kor kor's gf came over for reunion dinner as usual..

had our 2nd time yusheng!

went to fetch wendy & jason..

head down to simpang bedok for KTV!

wooohoooo~ sing sing sing!

im so happy~ finally can sing!

菇菇火锅 (becos bro gf is vegeterian!)

YUSHENG!

simpang bedok

* 倒带*

14 Feb 2010 --> 恭喜恭喜- 大年初一!

2010-02-14T22:46:00.001+08:00

wish everyone 恭喜发财，万事如意!
wish myself become more & more pretty!
LOL!
getting ready to go gong gong's place!
ZARA IS
MY ZARA LEATHER SKIRT!

had lunch at gong gong's place..
gong gong passed away last yr july..
so this yr only got one hongbao from da gu..
100 bucks, standard.
got some capital from daddy & mummy to gamble with the lil monsters!
joey, denson, kyler & garief!
and us the big monster!
delson, me, han, yue, yan!
LOL!
play 10cents 20 cents? WIN SIMI?!
i lost 90cents!!!
LOL!

time to leave to jiujiu's place.
all the way at woodlands!
huat uh!!!
jiu mu always say i look like barbie doll..
LOL~
than we start to joke n joke.
watch tv and rot.
it's V-day today!
no date, so poor ting ):
hahahaha no la, all those date r waste of my time.
went home in the evening & sleep.

on the way!

HARVEST = $202 (8 hong bao)

rather not wait for ur reply on meeting up today.

u're always so indecisive.

why not dont waste each other's time?

i got enough of all these shit that u're giving me.

* more more more hong bao! *

13 Feb 2010 --> Reunion dinner @ Vivo NO SIGNBOARD!

2010-02-13T23:16:00.000+08:00

made a reservation this morning..
most of the restaurant are packed already!
finally got one~ NO SIGNBOARD, vivocity.
setting off early to avoid traffic jam..
in the end we were 45 mins earlier for out appted 8pm!
wait & wait.. finally 8pm..
man~ their service is stupid slow!
30 mins per dish?!
PS: only 2 server on the floor, there are empty tables too!
i can understand if its peak hrs or etc tat will cause the delay..
but from what i see, i find no reason for such rubbish.
even daddy start to say its long!
total bill near to 600 bucks.
bad bad bad impression.
NO GOOD.
BUT THE FOOD IS NICE!

i personally love the lao yusheng part!
normally everyone will say the chinese 4 words tingy..
guess how my family do it?!
# dont backstab ah!
# talk properly dun shout ah!
# mind ur own business ah!
# dun let ghost follow ah!
etc etc! LOL! fun one!

photo time!

daddy

mummy

elder bro; han

elder sis; yue

2nd sis; yan

Youngest; xue

yue,xue & yan.

the food.

* HAPPY CNY! HUAT AHHHH! *

12 Feb 2010 --> CNY Service!

2010-02-12T00:00:00.001+08:00

knowing that i might not have enough time to make up after work..
so i woke up early to prepare i make up..
guess i shocked most of the people..
hahah! make up make wonders! dressing too!
normally wear tee to work! muahahh!
boss brought us out for lunch again! :p

Serene

Erliana

Esther

Yours Truly!(brkfast & lunch time!)

rushed down to expo after work..
its been long since i Q at the members area..
so hot.. but yet i know it meant good for me (:
planning my finances well from today onwards!
muahahha! HUAT UH!
photo time again! wahahahaha!

KITTY

YAOWEN & MIC

KAHMUN & JOANNE

ME!

GROUP

* Kong Hee fa choi! *

09 Feb & 10 Feb 2010 --> asthma releapse!

2010-02-09T23:42:00.000+08:00

have been having bad cough since friday..
daddy gimme money to see doc..
man~ asthma releapse
doc wants me to have 4 pump of ventolin per day!
u guys know how yucky the taste is? sigh!

well~ sumting to be happy about too..
went supermarketing with mummy..
bought strawberries & yakult..
bought hamper for my boss too ^^
wahahahahaha~ super blessed ;)

* sick >< *

06 Feb 2010 --> kiss the frog & party after that! LOL

2010-02-06T23:01:00.001+08:00

ready for service!

Rev. Paul Scanlon is so funny!
hahaha~ he share with us sumting: "kiss the frog"
we will have to kiss the frog until our prince charming come..
u got to have a J-O-B den got honey!
LOL!
God has His purpose on every single thing i go through in my life.
He always have something to show or teach me in every different stages.
i totally agree with it!
He knows me more than i knowing myself.
gave debrief.. as jo was not feeling well.
went to airport for fellowship..
im doing all this unto the Lord (:

ELISHA! (noisy guy

YAOWEN!

after settling them down.. went to fetch dajie to party!
PHUTURE tonight!
man~ we took 1hr plus to get to phuture (holiday inn opp) -.-
we are all directory freak.. especially the driver!

it's party time!

starting it was super boring..
till we came back from our cheesy dog session..
muahahaha~ anyway Kenny came to the back area to look for me before he leaves..
guys~ the water tingy behind phuture (hotel back area) is river or long kang?!
kenny insisted that its a long kang instead of river!!!>< back to phuture, the music is better! woohooo~ dance dance dance!

* Just dance, gonna be okay! *

05 Feb 2010 --> new hairstyle~ new look!

2010-02-05T22:32:00.000+08:00

my handsome hairstylist is not only handsome but super HOT!
hahha~ sunday called for appointment, schedule only today, 7.30pm!
cos he's super super packed already!
but he is worth waiting cos he has nv disappoint me at all!
KENNY came to wait for me for hours..
so NICE & SWEET of him right?
but guess what he is reading FHM while waiting for my hair to be done!
ya and my chawa~ cannot ta bao ):
but at least i got my pearly soya milk! hahah..
done my hair @ abt 11pm..
spent 300 plus..
cabby down to sampung bedok for supper!
wanna buy tissue den found out that i lose my wallet ):
guess i left it in the salon..
im super super kan chiong!
cabby home after supper (:

the process..

the result! (do i look more like chinese?)

our supper (:

* i want my wallet back, praying! *

04 Feb 2010 --> my sai-nai skills! :p

2010-02-04T22:23:00.000+08:00

my sai nai-ing skills nv fails to bring me my heart desire!
it works on my boss :p
muahahhhaa~ she drove us out today!
ya and i want to eat PASTAMANIA!
wooott~ there u go, my lunch! muhaahha!

* happy! *

01 Feb 2010 --> shopping day with mummy!

2010-02-01T22:16:00.000+08:00

went to town with mummy, yue & yan..
yan bought a titus watch..
mummy love that coach bag! hahaha
happy happy day!
thats our dinner~ MOS BURGER!

* weeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ *

30 Jan 2010 --> new level!

2010-01-30T21:46:00.000+08:00

new style today!
dun really know how to wear this jeans which i bought from BKK.
as i seldom wear jeans, yeah!
so this is the end result, overall its not bad looking ;)

today's svc with Rev. Dr. Niko!
i love his praise & worship team!
we really dance during praise.. there's steps to follow..
he did that before during leaders meeting few mths ago..
so jo and i were looking at each other saying sumting like..
GET READY TO DANCE!
hahaha!
coming to an end of service.. he wanna pray for the leaders in the church..
man~ i really have no faith as a leader.. so i didnt go infront..
till limei push me to the front! -.-
hahahaha man~ so many ppl ready to recieve..
so i was lk trying to prepare myself for God to touch n move..
I WASNT READY WHEN HE LAY HANDS ON ME!
i was looking behind to see if theres a security before i fall!
the moment i turn ard, only halfway, oh man i fall alr!
hahahaha, super fast!
new level & new faith!

* when it's God timing *

28 Jan 2010 --> cell group meeting

2010-01-28T20:18:00.000+08:00

rushed off from work..
headed down to jo's place early to practice with mic..
led praise for cg the very first time!
thinking of what games to play also..
i was so so so nervous cos the new ppl are joining us.
during the prac, everything was good..
my voice, my tone & tune..

started game first.. quite a success everyone enjoy i guess.
time to lead praise.. my tune went super high note!
none can catch my tune!
LOL!
i dun dare have any eye contact also!!!
ya and i was happily praising God myself that i didnt lead dem!
nearly forget how to start!
"Jesus we'll leaving for Your name ................... "
hahhaha~ guitar playing seems too fast suddenly!
nvm la~ God is Good!

Jo say i did everything right, jus that i sing too high!
everyone out of tune with me.. hahaha~
mai kan chiong la!

* linger in His presence *

27 Jan 2010 - Part 2

2010-01-27T22:56:00.000+08:00

did our nails nails nails!
SPA!
love it!

manicure!

Pendicure!

tired me!

* my new nails *

27 Jan 2010 --> Penning down my thoughts

2010-01-27T10:51:00.005+08:00

Here I am in the toilet shitting and blogging with my BB (multitask)

Oops! Well tats me! ;p

Comeon be natural (:

Well the one beside my cubicle surely bomba me with her shit smell!

Its super overwhelming now

but I'm not done with mine yet! )':

Focus on my thought now (:

Having some question in my mind.

Things starting to become weird.

Have u ever heard ppl saying:

"u have NO FAITH in God, u DON'T TRUST in God?"

for e.g: despite knowing that there is a certain degree of DANGER or tendency of bad things happening to them, they still do it..but u choose not to..
Isit really becos I dun have faith in God?
or

am I jus using my brain or common sense or even wisdom? (Watever u call it)
maybe in another words "play safe"?
I've been having this same "problem" with a few people ard me.
Some people like to use the word of God to sort of "back up" the things that they are doing.
It can be quite irritating at times when they do it repeated.
I always believe tat, every word in the bible (including: is,are,was or were) and even the punctuation, has a purpose of being there.
What abt jumping off a building from high up, trust in God that he will save u?
Have faith? Or use our brain and not do stupid things?
Am I right or am I wrong?
tell me people~~~

FAITH without WORKS is DEAD!
Means u have faith but do salah thing or nv do, still DEAD!
WORDS without ACTION is DEAD!
Everyone or rather most people love to be the one who lead..
They assign job out always, people running the errands for them..

but they do nothing?
WORDS are CHEAP!

" I DONT WANT " (this is the best answer u can ever get! LOL!)
TALK SO MUCH BUT NV MOVE!
Who dunno how to talk?

I was so inspired & convicted by Ps Tan's sermon during leaders mtg ytd.
It is about giving people under or ard us, the RESPONSIBILTY to live a better life.
Never to rule over their life. (rules & regulation)
I always believe in "LEADER BY EXAMPLE"
Do it YOURSELF first before asking others to do (:
It's never about the title or position but it's all abt JESUS.
Initially having some really crude mindset & rather skeptical ones on certain people..
i shared with roy (my shifu) ytd.
one thing he say was really v true.
It's not abt the position u have but people will have eyes to see.
God is looking at our heart whenever we do a certain things.
even people's eyes are staring at us all the time too!
Humble ourselves & CC (Cover Cacheng)!
in another words,
TALK LESS & DO MORE!

In conclusion, choose Faith or brain on the natural things?
Choose to do or jus talk and do nothing?
its written in the bible "Good master, more servant & Bad Master, less servant"
Love the people ard u.
they are with u not becos they owe u anything but we are to learn from each other.
LEARNING RESPONSIBILTY.

PS: dun link irrelevant stuff to spiritual word of God (:

Christine Tan. Sent via BlackBerry from SingTel!

26 Jan 2010 --> SERVANTHOOD - Ps.Tan

2010-01-26T21:18:00.000+08:00

rushed down to jurong west for leaders mtg..
man totally blown away by the word!
stay tune with me alright!
i'll just say the main point.

people come to church for freedom not stress.
people that are under me are here to learn responsiblity that they have yet to learn.
its about meeting each other needs.
its nv abt "hey im higher den u & boast ard"
dont be surprise cos u will definitely see such people..
and dun get disappointed to find them even in CHURCH!
i was sharing with shifu jus now on the cab back..
he totally know how i was feeling..
and taught me to big more big hearted (:

* do more, talk less! *

25 Jan 2010 --> PIZZAHUT!

2010-01-25T20:12:00.000+08:00

this is my ah sum office look!

met up with mummy & yan for pizzahut!
LOVE DRUMLET!
im so ah dai!
wanna order beef lazagne but order beef bolognese ):
didnt finish it cos not nice!

bought 3 heels (one of them)

* love shopping *

23 Jan 2010 --> maybe thats wat i wanted..

2010-01-23T21:13:00.001+08:00

the air seems clearer after much talking together.
my heart seems lighten as well.
when i thought that we will jus end there but..
it was jus me who make the decision to walk away.
ya i am like that.. i drift away easily.
but i was glad that she stay stationary. that's her..
MY DAJIE~ LOVE!
guess what we decided to PARTY! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~!
together with Jocelyn.. fun fun fun!
the crowd was OMGGGG (CMI) until my fren came..
the models, they indeed beautify the dance floor much ;)
saw Gary, Bryan & Roy!
saw KENNY but disappointing la! (he knows why! LOL)
went scrolling with mr. J, sat down n chat.
this is what i wanted.. just a moment to release all my stress.
Thanks.
I had a wonderful night tonight.

Picture time!

Ready for church! (one of the dress i bought from BKK)

MY DAJIE!

TOGETHER WITH JOCELYN!

I BULLY GARY(SHORTY)

BUT ROY HELP GARY ):

wanted to take photo with Kenny but too bad my bb no batt totally!
and he is carry the idiot iphone! :p

* partyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~ *

20 Jan 2010 --> darlingg!

2010-01-20T19:53:00.000+08:00

first person to call when i touch down from BKK!
hehehehe~ she miss me so much!
awwwwwwwwwwww!
on leave today!
dinner with darlingg bel @ ting tai fung!
shop and shop den starbucks!
my favorite place, a time for me to share my trouble.
hehehe, thanks darlingg!

READY FOR THE DATE, IM TIRED!

unglam, dig food out of her braces! lols!

our food!

Yours truly! unglam!

us!

STARBUCK SESSION!

* i love her~ *

14 Jan 2010 --> BKK virgin trip Day 1

2010-01-14T15:08:00.000+08:00

Getting ready for my VIRGIN TRIP w/o daddy & mummy!

CHECK OUT MY BIMBO LUGGUAGE! JO SAY I LOOK SUPER BIMBO! LOL

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ON THE PLANE!

IN THE AIR!

HOTEL! BAIYOKE BOUTIQUE!

THE GIRLS ROOM~

MY MAKE UP POUCH, SHAMPOO, CONDITIONAL & FACIAL PRODUCT ETC!

FIRST DINNER!

* not feeling very well *

13 Jan 2010 --> E399 Steamboat!

2010-01-13T12:20:00.000+08:00

it's been long since we had our steamboat together..
hahahaa! spot me in the kitchen, messing up everything!
wahahahahaa! =x
im just not a kitchen person!
we had our fun! with the cane & etc.
rushed home via cabby and down to double O meet darlingg ju..
reached abt 12 plus reaching 1am =x
sorry darlingg..
head down to phuture from dbl o!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ party all night with her..
FUN! (:
as usual weird ppl ard..
guys do i look like mix?
alot of ppl have been asking me! LOL!

* leaving for BKK tommorrow, totally excited! *

08 Jan 2010 --> Ivan's birthday celebration @ NEWYORK NEWYORK!

2010-01-08T23:37:00.000+08:00

the cellgroup outing nearly cock up but thanks God it successful still!
had our dinner @ NEWYORK NEWYORK!
surprise Ivan with cakes!
took alot of unglam photos! haha
FUN FUN FUN is what we love!
full of CRAP yet WITH LOTS OF LOVE!

* it takes two hands to clap *

04 Jan 2010 --> overjoy!

2010-01-04T23:40:00.000+08:00

knocked off from work!
head down to city hall to meet mummy & yan to buy my lugguage!
hehhee!
saw bro gf den shortly my bro, so qiao!
decided to settle down for dinner!
went over to Suntec to check out the restaurant.
SWISS CULTURE!
after food, me, mummy & yan went to see lugguage while bro & his gf go lomantic!
bought a PINK lugguage!
Initially, the yan wanna share it with me..
but i told mummy i dont like to share..
so mummy scold her ask her buy herself! LOL!
LOVE MUMMY!
i was overjoy today! HAHA!
I AM BLESSED!

got it, love it so much!
(MEDIUM SIZE) $139 bucks! weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

our food! (super nice)

* i cant wait to use my lugguage *

03 Jan 2010 --> Planning for BKK trip!

2010-01-03T23:55:00.000+08:00

im too tired so overslept!
i was 1.5 hrs late!
LOL!
finally finally finally the plan for BKK is out!
wooohoooo~ super excited!
had our late dinner @ ASTON!
we laugh the whole makan session!
LOL!

* counting down to BKK! *

02 Jan 2010 --> first service of the 2010!

2010-01-02T22:00:00.001+08:00

sermon - GOD IS A GOD OF NEW THINGS.
Isa 43: 18-21
v18: dun dwell in the past.
This was spoken when the people were in despair.
3 things to learn from here.
# forget the former things (v18)
God want us to look forward!
Be it success or failure, dont dwell in it, we will get hinder!
Take one step forward always.
Isa 43:16-17
We have walk thru the water yet not drown, the fire yet not burnt!
2009 is still victorious still!
don't b distracted by my left or right, stick to my on lane!
you cant be driving a car and keep looking at the rear mirror all the time.
There are always new things!
2 Cor 5:17 - all things will become new!
# get a vision of new things from God (isa43:19)
Lk23:43
With God all things are possible!
God can make rivers in desert! Bad things to Good!
STEP OUT FROM UNBELIEVE INTO FAITH!
Many people think "GOT LAW = NO GRACE" (Jn1:16-17)
NO! Law allow the Isrealite to sacrifice lamb to atone for their sins. (God allow forgiveness through the shed of blood)
Jesus was one of God's grace when He shed His blood.
GOD IS A GOD OF GRACE AFTER GRACE.
Zec4:6-7
I must ask God for NEW GRACE in this 2010.
Dont cant stuck with old things! MOVE ON!
God's grace is even GREATER in the new things!
God wanna bless His people, He created a river in a desert. The animal enjoy the blessing too! (Isa 43:20)
SAME FOR ME TOO!
God will bless me & thru me people will get bless too!
Natural may look hopeless, BUT GOD!
A. THINK POSITIVE THOUGHTS
B. VISUALIZE YOUR DREAM
C. BELIEVE IN GOD'S PROMISES
D. SPEAK OUT THE VISION
Raise up my faith to the moment my Rhema word was spoken!
# give THANKS & PRAISE continually to God (Isa 43:21)
When we praise, demon flee!
Paul Potts is one of the example (google him)
We are limited not by our abilities but VISION.

after the service, Joanna appreciate me & mic.
Was kinda surprise that she will do that today.
nearly cry when she give her appreciation speech.
i love the dress she bought for me! HAHAA!
We also have new people from Timothy side coming to our side.
WELCOME (:
all i can say is God is really Good!
Praise Jesus!

Photo!

handmade by Joanne!

me & joanne

me, Joanne & mic!

cellgroup photo

* i want a great 2010! *

01 Jan 2010 --> lunching with family & overnight prayer meeting!

2010-01-01T23:41:00.000+08:00

back @ 7am!
slept ard 8~ and got woke up at 11 plus!
so tired! faster get ready gonna go lunch with family!
daddy, mummy, bro, bro gf, sis & 2nd sis.
full attendance!
PUTIEN! (standard had drop so much!)

Yours truly!

yue!

mummy & daddy!

food!

end lunch at abt 2 plus 3..
came home nap..
woke up 7 plus, rushed go prepare again..
time for overnight prayer meeting!
9pm -3 am!
something which we have take at least a mth to plan!
thank God it was a sucess & u learnt so much things thru all this.

awards & trophy!

the Leaders!

i would like to take this opportunity to thank:
Roy for rushing down and helping to do award..
Rolland for helping up the awards.
Liting for finding the food lobang
Kok wei for his last min help in the midst of his busy-ness..
last but not least, Adrian for buying ice
Thank you guys!
ACTIONS SPEAKS LOUDER THAN WORDS!
PS: dun say yes in the first place if your ass is not tat big for tat undies! (:

* looking forward to great 2010 *

31 Dec 2009 --> Sentosa Siloso Beach Party!

2009-12-31T00:54:00.000+08:00

no halfday today becos Christmas im on halfday alr ):
noob office.. make me rott all the way till 5.30pm!
aniway did some fruitful stuff such as planning outting for cg!
wooohooo!
finally time up!
rushed home, prepare for beach party..
i was told by dajie not to make up too much..
so i did it super light like nth!
go there all put lashes & make up! lols
i look so chuizzzz in all the pictures!
anyway i've enjoyed with the girls!
dajie, shermaine, yunqi & Gen.

reached home at 7 plus!

photo time! ( please prepare a bucket!)
we did take alot of pictures with alot of passerby whom requested..
not sure where to get the pics.. lols!

im ready to set off!

all ready for party!

waiting time!

party time with party people!

foam party!

after some washed up!

* party party party! *

29 Dec 2009 --> my own boxing day! HAHA!

2009-12-29T00:12:00.000+08:00

i've been waiting so long for this day!
its my OWN boxing day.. cos i wanna wait for my office present to come in!
normally, every yr, whenever i recieved a present for Christmas..
i'll jus open it on the day..
this year, i manage to overcome all temptation!
open it today!
LOL!

some of the food during my office lunch buffet!

didnt really had a great time for lunch as i was busy on my mobile.
man, was really kinda pissed of planning the overnight prayer meeting..
its not as easy as that ><
ya and some ppl are good at talking only..
PRAISE GOD!
aniway.. jus open your eyes & see.

its present time!

some present after opening!

special thanks to: Joanne, Huimei, Boss, Shiping, Yana, Naim, Florence, Anna, Tina, Liwei, Irene, bro's gf & bro! hopefully i didnt miss out anyone!

* love surprises! *

26 Dec 2009 --> church & party!

2009-12-26T23:01:00.001+08:00

tot that i could sleep longer den usual as there was no Ian's discpleship..
however, the rest of us gathering to plan for the overnight prayer mtg.
halfway during my nap, Ian bbm me..
he wanna meet me at expo. so i gave him a timing, 3.45pm.
got myself up prepared & rushed down via cabby as usual.
gonna do the disbandment form w/o jo?!
shock of my life! everything was so sudden!
was so busy since ytd! Jo was away at bintan!
BBM BBM BBM! lmao!
attendance not in as i did not get the info.. ahhhhhhhhhh!
thank God everything was settled.
*cold sweat*

today pastor shared about ZACCHAEUS
his name means PURE.
Lk 19: 1-10
BUT Zacchaeus is the CHIEF of TAX COLLECTORS!
He heard that Jesus is coming to Jericho.
Jericho means change/ a place of change.
Zacchaeus is ready to go Jericho to meet Jesus, he is ready for a change.
however, he's too short so he had to climb up a tree!
then Jesus saw him.
In order to see Jesus, we should climb the "CROSS OF CALVARY TREE"
#1 We will see Jesus as the SAVIOUR
#2 We will see Jesus as the HEALER
#3 We will see Jesus as the DELIVERER
#4 We will see NEW VISIONS & DREAMS.
new revelation, seeing Jesus in another different angle.

liling!

IC Zone Leader's gift exchange!

after service, went to fellowship at subway with mems.
waited for Irene to come down expo fetch me to PHUTURE!
weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! its party time! 2nd home!

saw my dajie there! LOVES!

playing with thomas iphone.

Irene, Winna & thomas!

APPLE SHOOTER, my love!

my love!

after drinking my love, this is wat happen to my face! LOL!

* had my fun! *

25 Dec 2009 --> Serene's wedding & my new boyfriend!

2009-12-25T23:59:00.000+08:00

cabby down to RELC hotel for Serene's wedding!
love her wedding gown very nice! haha!
yea i found my new boyfriend!
alright sally is like my mummy of the day..
she gets my food for me.
i have to admit i dunno how to use chopstick!
so i use forks & spoon!
i cant differentiate pork & duck, ok my fault!
hahahhaha~ overall uncle ah heng is the great entertainer of all!
he makes me laugh the whole dinner through!

my gucci & davidoff!

sally

pearly

shiping

together with my boss!

yes my new bf! he look super jap jap & handsome!
jenny's son!
i love him!

* CONGRATS! *

24 Dec 2009 --> Christmas eve in church!

2009-12-24T23:50:00.001+08:00

halfday work today!
came home nap for about 1/2 hr..
off prepare and cabby down to expo for service!
check out my camwhore before going out!
anyway this is the 2nd dress which i bought when im out with Yuriko previously.

went to Q-up at 4 plus when service start at 7.30pm..
as usual we are kiasu..
initially that the leaders door will open first before the members..
but it was the other way round..
Christmas is always packed!
we Q so early but yet our members only get such a back area
aniway all the members had play apart for this Christmas..
Well down guys!
time for me to give present to my people! hahaha!
check out our photo taking too!

me! (gan mummy say i slim down again!LOL)

liling (yaowen youngest sister)

kahmun!

my huimei!

yaowen!

kahmun & yaowen!

kittyy & gail!

one group!

service was GREAT.
the drama was GREAT as usual!
its super funny too! hahaha!
everything ended about 9 plus.
aniway~ let's welcome KAHMUN back!
took a photo before leaving the hall!
Christmas 2009!

after all the ee ee or or..
it's time for dinner and movie!
i don't really watch movie but i go becos i wanna fellowship with the people!
AVATAR (the movie that i could nv imagine i will watch)
had our dinner at HONG KONG CAFE (Plaza Sing)
saw alaric halfway so decided to take a photo.

some photos taken at PS with my girls & our food!

finally its reaching 12.45am..
time for movie!
overall is a nice show~ but jus abit disgusted by the blue blue green green stuff!
hahahha~
home sweet home after that it was 4am..
so tired yet im happy!

* MERRY CHRISTMAS! *

I am my greatest enemies.

2009-12-23T00:18:00.003+08:00

wooo.. I feel like crying now! I NEED A HUG! Lols!
Dunno what is wrong exactly!
I'm running this race..
And I know I'm NOT giving up!

PS: dajie and darlingg bel. & lynda..

I missed so much meeting up with u girls!

* AND YOU KNOW YOU CAN SURVIVE (hero) *
Christine Tan. Sent via BlackBerry from SingTel!

20 Dec 2009 --> Church Leadership Thanksgiving!

2009-12-20T22:59:00.000+08:00

head down to jurong west..
first ting is settle for dinner buffet @ level 4!
had fun there with the peeps.
down to B3 to Q right after..
its been so long since we Q!

chiong into the hall!
take photos! hahaha~
waited till 7pm!
started off with a DANCE lesson
music of "I GOTTA FEELING WOOOHOOO!"
got the clubbing feeling, disco lightings!
the programmes goes on.
super heart warming moments.
i love in when even Pastors & Sun dance!
Come on lets be relevant & relatable!
Tears ran down my face so many times.

hearing testimony after testimony of people whom life was changed..
because of a person who is willing to make a difference or to go extra miles.
She's none other then Sun.
even when she's busy with a schedules she has nv once neglected her friends..
giving them advise in the middle of the night.
Not to forget Pastor Kong too!
A great pastor, really!
felt so especially close to the church today
a v homely feeling today.. with God.
yes, we party, we sing, we dance most imptly we did not compromise any christian vaules.
We praise, we worship & we pray!
seeing how people's life had changed, there's a joy within me.
seeing how people came out from valley or "against all odds"
it really encourage me alot!
i was so touched!
went around hugging ppl that you dunno, encouraging them, so sweet!
the moment i remember God is a God of LOVE.

it's really very hard to serve as a leader in the house of God.
planning of the overnight prayer meeting.
its so easy to say than to do.
ultimately none of us are perfect.
but God is really good.
experiencing the scratching of my capacity & faith in God..
im learning, i will humble myself & learn to see & hear things well.

sang the song: HERO by Mariah Carey.
it's lk singing to myself & i cant stop tearing.
Jesus is my HERO!
HE KNOWS WHAT I FEEL IN EVERY SITUATION!

There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid Of what you are

There's an answer
If you reach into your soul
And the sorrow that you know
Will melt away

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

It's a long road
When you face the world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear

And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In time You'll find the way
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you

check out the photos today... i look so ugly today dunno why! HAHA!

* JESUS IS MY HERO *

19 Dec 2009 --> CANDLELIGHT SERVICE 2009

2009-12-19T23:35:00.001+08:00

this is one of the dress which i bought when im out with Yuriko!
check it out, alteration done finally!
love it!
anyway dont have to work this sat! hehes!
no Ian's discipleship too..
aniway camwhore before cabbing to expo!

today is CANDLELIGHT SERVICE!
the best part is SUN IS BACK HOME WITH US!
didnt get the chance to take photos with her..
LONG QUEUE! hhahhaa.
check out the candlelight photos!

* His light shines *

14 - 16 Dec 2009 --> SEVERE FOOD POISONING!

2009-12-16T21:01:00.002+08:00

HELL 3 DAYS!
My WORST days ever!

14 Dec: feeling breathless the night before however manage to sleep.
was about to wake up & prepare for work @ 7am.
when i felt the pressure on my chest again..
quickly wake mummy up.. 5 mins ltr start to vomit non-stop.
i dunno what happen, i only know im v v afraid of vomitting.
cry like dunno what.. so since 7am all the way to the doc i was vomitting non-stop..
every 15 mins once..
went to the doc..
diagnosed with SEVERE FOOD POISONING! T.T
due to my asthmatic history doc decided to give me a jab for faster relieve..
so that i wont pent too hard.
then again im super afraid of INJECTION T.T
my body starts to reject food.. but i have to eat due to gastric problem..
no choice, mummy gimme water & bread.
still after everything i still vomit out..
even plain water, my body reject.
so painful.
Thank God mummy is off today.
aniway..here's the hole!

15 Dec: the 2nd day as usual.
Eat what vomit what. Body still rejecting food.
* suffering *
mummy has to work today so suchi will take care of me..
she gave me water also..
she's really a v hardworking maid..
i love her man!
aniway everyday after i woke up she will make my bed..
send ur clothes for washing in the morning, at night come out already!
she's v fast too.
here's my pink bedsheet!
my body took vomit from 15mins interval to 30 -45mins..
which means im recovery.. but still no food went into my body.
i tried not to vomit anything cos whenever i do, i will fall on the floor..
totally weak.
weighing 44kg & running a fever too!

16 Dec: it's suppose to be the last day of my MC..
but im still vomitting & my gastric is super pain.
running a fever still.. decided to go back to the doctor..
got a whole new batch of medicine.
felt so much better after that..
im a good girl man!
i sleep and sleep and sleep..

what a hell experience these 3 days!
i've slim down alot!
proven cos i cant feel my skinny jeans as skinny as before! LOL!

* need to work tommorrow *

12 Dec 2009 --> DREAMS & VISION!

2009-12-12T23:42:00.000+08:00

on for work today ):
as usual rushed home, bathe & prepare...
out cabby to expo.. late late late super late for Ian's discipleship..
but ya not meeting Ian however meeting the rest..
discuss about the overnight prayer meeting..

Pastor Kong preach about DREAMS & VISION today!
# DREAMS MUST COME FROM GOD!

Lk 1:34 - When an ANGEL appear to Mary, telling her that she is going to be pregnant. but yet she's still a virgin & she ask God for a strategy
# ASK GOD FOR STRATEGY
Heb 6 - faith pleases God

Lk1:35 - Angel anwsered Mary with the strategy, that is ..
# LET THE HOLY SPIRIT COME UPON YOU

Lk1:36-37 - Angel gave a promise to Mary from the word, "with God all things are possible."
# GET A PROMISE FROM THE WORD

Lk1:38 - Mary surrender to the will of God.
# SURRENDER TO THE WILL OF GOD

Lk 2:24-44
# FACE YOUR THREAT OF LOSING YOUR DREAM

Lk 2:52
#GOD'S DREAM IN YOU WILL GROW AND INCREASE IN YOUR LIFE

Pastor laid hands on CGC's & PCGL's TODAY.
this is the day to have new vision & new dream.
God, i thank You for Your word.

* REVIVE *

9 Dec 2009 --> YURIKO BABE!

2009-12-09T23:53:00.000+08:00

met up with yuriko today..

this was planned since last mth..

hahaha~

AMY FLY AEROPLANE ):

had a great catch up!

bought 2 dress~ love it!

gonna get mummy to help me alter it shout! hehehe!

* more catching up needed *

08 Dec 2009 --> plannings!

2009-12-08T23:20:00.000+08:00

met up with Ian's discipleship peeps to plan the upcoming overnight prayer meeting.
the rough idea of it is out already somehow.
so far so good.
had bak kut teh @ riverwalk with the peeps
after that we went over to SGH visit liwei..
visitation hour is over already..
so we can only go up 4 by 4..
the rest of us who were waiting downstairs starts to get v high & joke abt..
ya & shihan cant stop laughing!
quite fun after all but im so tired!

came back really late..

mummy got so fed up with me going to hospital with her permission..

nagging me abt my weak immune system ):

* im not gng to be sick *

05 & 06 Dec 2009 --> celebrating Jo's Birthday in church!

2009-12-06T12:34:00.000+08:00

getting ready to rushed down expo for Ian's discipleship!
PS: Love my new dress ALOT!

had been v busy coordinating with yaowen, hm & mike for this birthday surprise..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOANNE!
you have been a wonderful leader, impacting my life always..
challenging me to grow more in God everytime.
giving me opportunity to find my potential & self.
not to forget your trust in me of becoming a CGL.
nothing is impossible indeed!
love you.

preparation of her birthday!

- 23 sunflower (with her photos tied on it)
- more than 23 ballon ( blown by us & some tim's cg ppl, for her to burst! wahahah =x)
- get alyscia to help get Ion's voucher from hm.
straight after Ian's discipleship..haha..
busy busy with all the coordination..
hope she really likes it! HEHE.

hide everything at the chorus board side =x
manage to get permission from Ian.. HEHE!
proceed to service..
WOW~ so impacted to see so many ppl running to the front..
to give God the offering..
the move of the H.S is so strong..
im now changing my tithing to per week basis instead of mth!
PRAISE THE LORD!

str8 after svc..
rush to the back area. get everything done..
wait for alyscia's miss call den ran over to give her the SURPRISE!
wahahah~ she has to burst the balloon..
she burst till wanna cry already lo~ muahahahah!
they planning to sabo me back with cockroaches n lizard next yr!
ALAMAK~ HAVE MERCY ON ME! LOL!

cell group pictures after bursting of balloons! HAHA!

went to changi airport for fellowship..
right after that another 2nd celebration for Jo..
with some of her clique's zone leaders..

on our way! (using my blackberry)

Yours Truly.

Jojo!

US!

reached Blu Jazz Bar @ Bali lane abt 12am..zun zun!
hahhaa~
so lets jump to 6 Dec NOW.

ok done.. 6 DEC 2009 (actual day)

Jojo!

cake handmake personally by peiyun.. v cute!
hahha~ we move on to the sabo game..
Jo have to give away 7 sunflower..
at the back of the photo got her name..
add her on facebook!
me and peiyun racky for her.. wahahh!
so fun!
below are some e.g! (didnt manage to get all 7 photos)

Jo & I!

LESTER, JO & ME!

YW, JO & ME!

Yours truly again.

Group photo!

hahahaa~ really enjoyed myself a whole day today..
love this dress i wore today..
totally PERFECT!
wahahahaha!

* the differences between convincing self & being convicted by H.S*

04 Dec 2009 --> PHUTURING WITH THE GIRLS ONCE AGAIN!

2009-12-04T22:12:00.001+08:00

it's been long long long time since we gathered again @ PHUTURE!
or even meet up..
i have never thought or dream that this will happen again.
God is graceful, AMEN?
overall its a great night with great music.. super crowded..
ya none of them can make it! -.-
was quite irritated today, ppl keep msging me..
asking me to go find them & etc..
best part is mr. A was there too & he keep sticking to me..
i cant even enjoy myself with my frens -.-
thank God after my persistence to ask him to shoo..
he shoo-ed but KEEP MSGING ME STILL! -.-

all the photos!
dun need me to intro, guess you guys no who are they~ haha!
i look very tired ok! hahah, indeed i am!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh~ NO APPLE BOTTOM JEANS TODAY! ):

cant low low low low with them..

didnt drink appleshooter!

only some wine & vodka..

wooohoooo! my dajie was there too!

love her skirt! wahahaha~

NICE!

had my cheesy dog & took cabby back with da jie.. HEHE!

meet up soon, dajie!

ya von nv gimme my chocolate mint ):

return me my Daniel's Yam dress! hahahha! KNS!

* when there is GRACE, there is LOVE *